Post by Therider on Sept 13, 2020 22:57:08 GMT -8
So, hi everyone! This is the first post I've made here in a long time. It's been several months at the very least, and I for one would like to apologise to everyone whom I may have inconvenienced or offended by my absence. If I could borrow some moments of your time today, I would like to let you know my intentions.
The last 2 years on LI have been exciting, eventful, and truly precious to me. I made countless friends, countless mistakes, role played a bit here and there, and reaffirmed my love for my favorite Nintendo characters. It seems crazy to me that Isabelle's release trailer is what prompted me to join way back in October of 18, a young man fresh out of a world-changing religious experience and into a world of fun for all. It wasn't always perfect, I know I hurt many people. But I like to believe that my time here was enjoyable, that i leave behind a good legacy.
However, today my road moves forward.
The last few months have been truly, truly awful for me in real life. I was broken up with by my now-ex girlfriend for reasons that questioned my spiritual faith, causing me to spiral into self-destructive behaviors and patterns; Many of which the members on here have had to deal with. In February, I was officially diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety, and given medication to combat it;that medication destroyed my sleep patterns and fought against my creative spark. In March, when everyone moved into quarantine, my mother lost her job. I was told that I could not find work because of my parent's medical issues, which meant that COVID-19 could literally kill them. My summer home from college saw my grandmother, my last living grandparent, finally pass away into the embrace of the heavens, and now my extended family is shattering because of it.
Things weren't all bad. I ran some DnD for a few friends,and reaffirmed my desire to teach. Those are positives that I look at fondly. And I want to affirm today I will be back. That is my solemn promise, sworn under the midnight moon of this day. But for now I will be leaving.
The reason? Good question. I truly believe time away, without the worry that I'm imposing on someone because I don't post, or because I'm a waste of a slot on the Discord Server or a mission, may help my muse flourish again. I want to be here, but if I'm not doing anything, then it must needs be that I find my reason to start again. I don't know how long I'll be gone. It could be a few days, or a few months; it may be a year. But i must leave, I know that much.
That being said, I would like to make a few minor requests.
1)I would like to reserve only one character for my return, that it may not be taken by anyone else. Hau's goofy adventures can continue, the cheerful pupper Isabelle can still enjoy her time with the MGS and Shadow, and the other variety of characters can be played with by anyone. I simply ask that the Vampire Killer remain dormant, until the strongest Vampire Hunter can reclaim it when the time is right.
2) That my account isn't deleted, just held in storage until my return.
And the hardest one, 3)
...
Remember me fondly.
My hopes and dreams are invested into the success of Li. Should the day come where my writing skills are needed once more, after I master myself and my mind, I will return to Li and make my mark known. Until then, I must make sure my road to recovery (of muse, of mental health, and of faith) is steady, true, and above all, successful.
if you want to chat or anything, I'll still be on Discord; just not in the server anymore. And no one is getting blocked.
Iwata be with you 'till we meet again.
The last 2 years on LI have been exciting, eventful, and truly precious to me. I made countless friends, countless mistakes, role played a bit here and there, and reaffirmed my love for my favorite Nintendo characters. It seems crazy to me that Isabelle's release trailer is what prompted me to join way back in October of 18, a young man fresh out of a world-changing religious experience and into a world of fun for all. It wasn't always perfect, I know I hurt many people. But I like to believe that my time here was enjoyable, that i leave behind a good legacy.
However, today my road moves forward.
The last few months have been truly, truly awful for me in real life. I was broken up with by my now-ex girlfriend for reasons that questioned my spiritual faith, causing me to spiral into self-destructive behaviors and patterns; Many of which the members on here have had to deal with. In February, I was officially diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety, and given medication to combat it;that medication destroyed my sleep patterns and fought against my creative spark. In March, when everyone moved into quarantine, my mother lost her job. I was told that I could not find work because of my parent's medical issues, which meant that COVID-19 could literally kill them. My summer home from college saw my grandmother, my last living grandparent, finally pass away into the embrace of the heavens, and now my extended family is shattering because of it.
Things weren't all bad. I ran some DnD for a few friends,and reaffirmed my desire to teach. Those are positives that I look at fondly. And I want to affirm today I will be back. That is my solemn promise, sworn under the midnight moon of this day. But for now I will be leaving.
The reason? Good question. I truly believe time away, without the worry that I'm imposing on someone because I don't post, or because I'm a waste of a slot on the Discord Server or a mission, may help my muse flourish again. I want to be here, but if I'm not doing anything, then it must needs be that I find my reason to start again. I don't know how long I'll be gone. It could be a few days, or a few months; it may be a year. But i must leave, I know that much.
That being said, I would like to make a few minor requests.
1)I would like to reserve only one character for my return, that it may not be taken by anyone else. Hau's goofy adventures can continue, the cheerful pupper Isabelle can still enjoy her time with the MGS and Shadow, and the other variety of characters can be played with by anyone. I simply ask that the Vampire Killer remain dormant, until the strongest Vampire Hunter can reclaim it when the time is right.
2) That my account isn't deleted, just held in storage until my return.
And the hardest one, 3)
...
Remember me fondly.
My hopes and dreams are invested into the success of Li. Should the day come where my writing skills are needed once more, after I master myself and my mind, I will return to Li and make my mark known. Until then, I must make sure my road to recovery (of muse, of mental health, and of faith) is steady, true, and above all, successful.
if you want to chat or anything, I'll still be on Discord; just not in the server anymore. And no one is getting blocked.
Iwata be with you 'till we meet again.
Last Edit:
Sept 13, 2020 22:58:40 GMT -8 by Therider
