Post by Deleted on May 20, 2020 12:57:35 GMT -8
I’m sorry about this, everyone, but I’m leaving. I know this may seem sudden, but this is actually the result of a lot of stuff that’s been happening behind the scenes, in private messages. I’m leaving because I’ve learned that this site would probably be better off without me.
Have you read a Test in Being Honest? I’m assuming all of you have by this point. I said in it that I was worried about not fitting in, because I didn’t like some of the stuff that was happening on the site. Specifically, I singled out the root cause of the conflict between myself and Marin: the Devour move, and all its variants.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I have nothing wrong with this move on its own. It makes perfect sense for some characters to have this. But why do I not like it? I alluded to it being gross, and it is. It’s a bit more than that, though. The idea of a character being eaten alive and digested is kinda scary, and I’ve always associated it with monster movies and particularly depraved pop-culture villains. With that being said, I hope it makes sense to you why I could be unsettled by this move being used by, say, Peach. It creates a subversive dissonance that, rather than being funny, I find deeply wrong. Princess Peach? A cannibal? That just doesn’t sound right at all.
Now, I said that I didn’t really like it in TBH, and I’m not sure how well you all understood me when I said that. I hoped when I made it people would understand me, and maybe be more mindful of my feelings in the future. Is that selfish of me? Marin seems to think so. Personally, I don’t think it is, by any stretch of the imagination, absurd to want your friends to keep your feelings in mind. So I hoped that maybe, just maybe, people would be mindful.
Unfortunately, that didn’t happen at all. I’m not going to name names, but after I made that, these sorts of characters were apped at an alarming rate. Paying close attention to the Creation Station, I counted 4 characters with this ability being apped just a couple of weeks after my post. That was most of the characters I saw being apped, too, if not all of them. Wow, I thought, do people just not care how I feel? Do they not understand? 4 in less than one month almost felt like a personal insult to my post. It made me come to the conclusion that people just didn’t care.
Is it wrong for me to think this way? Maybe. I know you’re all trying to have fun in your own way. If your way of having fun is apping a bunch of characters specifically so you could have them repeat this exact same joke, then who am I to judge, right? But it also made it so that I was feeling excluded and ignored. I had less opportunities on the site with these characters being churned out. Having to avoid threads, specifically because people keep inserting this specific move into their characters’ movesets, isn’t fun. It just makes the roleplaying experience harder than it needs to be.
Apparently this is important to a lot of you, though. If Marin couldn’t do it, she told me she’d leave the site. That was a big surprise to me. And then she told me...well, she said that the strife between us made her want to leave. That’s when I came to a conclusion I was really hoping not to come to:
I’m the problem here...
...Or am I? Maybe it’s more complicated. At this point, though, I’m tired of feeling this way. I’m tired of feeling like I’m the problem, and I’m tired of feeling ignored, so I have to leave.
This isn’t easy for me. There’s a lot I had planned, and I’m a forward thinking guy, but some things aren’t meant to be. I’m going to make a post detailing stuff I had planned for the missions I’m running, for all you that are disappointed by me pulling the plug on them, as well as some other stuff I had planned. If you’d like to run them in my stead, go for it.
I’m sorry.
Goodbye.
Have you read a Test in Being Honest? I’m assuming all of you have by this point. I said in it that I was worried about not fitting in, because I didn’t like some of the stuff that was happening on the site. Specifically, I singled out the root cause of the conflict between myself and Marin: the Devour move, and all its variants.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I have nothing wrong with this move on its own. It makes perfect sense for some characters to have this. But why do I not like it? I alluded to it being gross, and it is. It’s a bit more than that, though. The idea of a character being eaten alive and digested is kinda scary, and I’ve always associated it with monster movies and particularly depraved pop-culture villains. With that being said, I hope it makes sense to you why I could be unsettled by this move being used by, say, Peach. It creates a subversive dissonance that, rather than being funny, I find deeply wrong. Princess Peach? A cannibal? That just doesn’t sound right at all.
Now, I said that I didn’t really like it in TBH, and I’m not sure how well you all understood me when I said that. I hoped when I made it people would understand me, and maybe be more mindful of my feelings in the future. Is that selfish of me? Marin seems to think so. Personally, I don’t think it is, by any stretch of the imagination, absurd to want your friends to keep your feelings in mind. So I hoped that maybe, just maybe, people would be mindful.
Unfortunately, that didn’t happen at all. I’m not going to name names, but after I made that, these sorts of characters were apped at an alarming rate. Paying close attention to the Creation Station, I counted 4 characters with this ability being apped just a couple of weeks after my post. That was most of the characters I saw being apped, too, if not all of them. Wow, I thought, do people just not care how I feel? Do they not understand? 4 in less than one month almost felt like a personal insult to my post. It made me come to the conclusion that people just didn’t care.
Is it wrong for me to think this way? Maybe. I know you’re all trying to have fun in your own way. If your way of having fun is apping a bunch of characters specifically so you could have them repeat this exact same joke, then who am I to judge, right? But it also made it so that I was feeling excluded and ignored. I had less opportunities on the site with these characters being churned out. Having to avoid threads, specifically because people keep inserting this specific move into their characters’ movesets, isn’t fun. It just makes the roleplaying experience harder than it needs to be.
Apparently this is important to a lot of you, though. If Marin couldn’t do it, she told me she’d leave the site. That was a big surprise to me. And then she told me...well, she said that the strife between us made her want to leave. That’s when I came to a conclusion I was really hoping not to come to:
I’m the problem here...
...Or am I? Maybe it’s more complicated. At this point, though, I’m tired of feeling this way. I’m tired of feeling like I’m the problem, and I’m tired of feeling ignored, so I have to leave.
This isn’t easy for me. There’s a lot I had planned, and I’m a forward thinking guy, but some things aren’t meant to be. I’m going to make a post detailing stuff I had planned for the missions I’m running, for all you that are disappointed by me pulling the plug on them, as well as some other stuff I had planned. If you’d like to run them in my stead, go for it.
I’m sorry.
Goodbye.