Post by Deleted on May 4, 2020 20:06:58 GMT -8
Hey, everyone. First off, I'd like to preface this with something. To be clear, I hold no ill will towards anyone here. I've enjoyed my time on the site and I appreciate all of you for the opportunity to contribute to it in my own ways. Also, I'd like to apologize in advance. If this seems like I'm rambling, that's probably because I am. I'm not honest about myself as much as I should be, and it can be hard for me to get all my thoughts out there, so this might come off as jumbled or unfocused.
In any case, I've been speaking to Marin recently over private messages on Discord. I wanted clarification about something, and it turned into a heated discussion, and now...it's kinda weird. I've realized that we have our disagreements, but it's not just between the two of us. I've realized that the reason I felt we were having disagreements wasn't because of her, but because of me.
Basically, I've started to worry that I don't "fit in" with other members of the site.
This might sound extreme, but hear me out. We all have our differences, that's obvious. But recently I've been noticing a disconnect between myself and many other members. It's a bit strange to put into words, but I've been feeling a sense of dissonance when taking into consideration certain aspects of the site and its users. What do I mean by this? Well, it mainly boils down to differences in tastes, I suppose. Some things that a lot of users find enjoyable and funny I may find weird, annoying, or even gross. I don't mean to go into specifics, but to give an idea as to what I'm talking about, the first time I spoke to Marin about this was shortly after the creation of her most recent character app.
You may think I'm being judgmental, but to be clear, I'm doing my damndest not to be. I'm willing to acknowledge that this is just a matter of opinion, and I'm being uptight. That's something I've had to deal with for quite some time. I can be rather...uptight. It doesn't help that I'm rather argumentative, and a bit of a contrarian to boot.
But that's a me thing. It's not anyone's fault that I feel this way. And to be clear, I've known myself to be different from a lot of you for a long time, actually. It's obvious we have different interests. There are quite a few things that I know many of you like that I either dislike or simply have no interest in.
Here's an example: I'm not really into anime. I know, shocking. I mean, I've referenced anime plenty in the past, especially on Discord. Y'know, like...saying "Omae wa mou shindeiru" after making a FotNS reference. In all seriousness, though, you may also think it's funny given my most recent character app(I just think she's cute, okay?), and don't get me wrong, I know I'll be making quite a few references to anime, as well as pretty much anything animated and/or action-y, while playing said character. But at the same time, I wouldn't say I'm as big as an anime fan as I'm sure some of you are (Looking at you, Phreeze).
Still, despite this, I'll still make jokes about that sort of thing. Why? Well, partially because I think it's funny, but it's mainly because I want all of you to think it's funny. I want to fit in. But at the same time, I know that, at the end of the day, we're different. We'll always have our disagreements. And I hate to be a spoilsport, but I don't think there's any feasible way to change that. I'm sure all of you consider yourselves just fine the way you are, and I don't see myself making such a drastic shift in my life. It's something that we'll have to deal with. Just know that, despite my feelings of "not fitting in," I still appreciate all of you very much.
In any case, I've been speaking to Marin recently over private messages on Discord. I wanted clarification about something, and it turned into a heated discussion, and now...it's kinda weird. I've realized that we have our disagreements, but it's not just between the two of us. I've realized that the reason I felt we were having disagreements wasn't because of her, but because of me.
Basically, I've started to worry that I don't "fit in" with other members of the site.
This might sound extreme, but hear me out. We all have our differences, that's obvious. But recently I've been noticing a disconnect between myself and many other members. It's a bit strange to put into words, but I've been feeling a sense of dissonance when taking into consideration certain aspects of the site and its users. What do I mean by this? Well, it mainly boils down to differences in tastes, I suppose. Some things that a lot of users find enjoyable and funny I may find weird, annoying, or even gross. I don't mean to go into specifics, but to give an idea as to what I'm talking about, the first time I spoke to Marin about this was shortly after the creation of her most recent character app.
You may think I'm being judgmental, but to be clear, I'm doing my damndest not to be. I'm willing to acknowledge that this is just a matter of opinion, and I'm being uptight. That's something I've had to deal with for quite some time. I can be rather...uptight. It doesn't help that I'm rather argumentative, and a bit of a contrarian to boot.
But that's a me thing. It's not anyone's fault that I feel this way. And to be clear, I've known myself to be different from a lot of you for a long time, actually. It's obvious we have different interests. There are quite a few things that I know many of you like that I either dislike or simply have no interest in.
Here's an example: I'm not really into anime. I know, shocking. I mean, I've referenced anime plenty in the past, especially on Discord. Y'know, like...saying "Omae wa mou shindeiru" after making a FotNS reference. In all seriousness, though, you may also think it's funny given my most recent character app
Still, despite this, I'll still make jokes about that sort of thing. Why? Well, partially because I think it's funny, but it's mainly because I want all of you to think it's funny. I want to fit in. But at the same time, I know that, at the end of the day, we're different. We'll always have our disagreements. And I hate to be a spoilsport, but I don't think there's any feasible way to change that. I'm sure all of you consider yourselves just fine the way you are, and I don't see myself making such a drastic shift in my life. It's something that we'll have to deal with. Just know that, despite my feelings of "not fitting in," I still appreciate all of you very much.
